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Her name is Terah, and her site is www.sexxxyterah.com. She's a beautiful, shapely Montreal t-girl working in various areas of the adult industry. To put it mildly, this philosophically thoughtful t-girl is as smart as she is sexy ... and sexy as she is smart. Eros Zine: How difficult was it for you to transition; both physically and psychologically?
I didn't have a support network, so I drew a lot of my strength from a few close friends and researched a ton. I was very conscious and aware of the ramifications and I made sure I took my time in assessing all possible outcomes. I still possess a fully functional cock and my partners enjoy every once of my body. Physically, I think my transition was smooth because I believe my body type, allure and demeanor were highly feminized. Once I took the plunge and "crossed over" my personality seem to mesh correctly with my new female physique. I was very pleased. Eros Zine: Was your family supportive? Terah: I am not that close with them but they do understand my situation. It was difficult at first once I revealed my situation to them but in the end they know my personality had not changed and that I was still their offspring. They eventually adopted an unconditional love towards me and for that I am truly happy. Others have it much harder. Eros Zine: How easy is it for you to pass as female in public, and at social events? Terah: Most transsexuals generally feel some anxiety in this type of setting. I've adapted and learn to embrace it. I guess I love challenges, for lack of a better word, yet I rarely encounter any hassles or odd stares. For the most part, I do extremely well at social events. On the physical aspect, no one ever wonders what my gender is. However, I do get onlookers that seem to be attracted to a genuine girl. I'll be the first to admit that I do enjoy the attention I receive from males, especially when they are unaware of whom they are dealing with.
In hindsight, I have found many trannies to be over the top as if they aren't not trying to blend in and, in the end, they ultimately cause a scene. I hate dramatic entrances and attention-drawing! (She laughs.) I am much more subdued and enjoy my privacy all while being amongst socialites. Trannies must learn to become actors and apply their skills when needed. This valuable tool can also diffuse sticky situations as well as prevent them in the first place. Eros Zine: How did you venture into the adult industry? Terah: Like many others, I believe; it was all curiosity. I hooked up with some local photographers and worked on a few shoots. I later ventured to the USA and met other people in the industry. I was content with the photos and that re affirmed my notion that I was blessed with a photogenic presence (she laughs). You know, it's hard to see yourself as another gender. Having my photos taken was a way for me to face my new look. It forced me to be aware of how others saw me. At times, I would remember telling myself. "Wow, I can't believe this is me!" It was as if I was wearing a beautiful costume. I later met my current web designer, Diesel J from diesellive.com, who encouraged me slowly venture into the online webcam thing. I was pleased with it and I saw it as a way to slowly get into the adult entertainment industry without getting too caught up in it. As he say's, "it's baby steps". Eros Zine: What adult projects have you done to date? Terah: For the time being, all content is on my sexxxyterah.com website. I am slowly working into meeting with other producers. Since I've had an online presence, I've received a lot of offers from clients, producers, photographers etc. The response is overwhelming but I remain clear minded and focused and think things over before committing to any project.
Eros Zine: Is adult work taking all your time, or do you have another job as well? Terah: Adult work is fun. It's easy and you work with cool people most of the time. It's literally the easiest job I've ever had. I do meet gentlemen that can keep up with me for a night on the town but adult work doesn't take much of my time. I do spend some time with many of my friends and tour Canadian cities on a regular basis. I enjoy meeting folks from all over the place. Many of my members have had the pleasure of courting me. I give most people a chance when they try approaching me. Although I do have a private side to me, I enjoy sharing my thoughts, mind, body and soul with other like-minded gents. Eros Zine: Some t-girls we've spoken with see adult work as liberating, because it affirms them publicly as t-girls. Do you find this to be the case? Terah: Exactly. I am now coming into myself and can see my work as a form of validation. That being said, I was complete and satisfied with every aspect of my life. But adult work doesn't have me hiding or pretending to be someone I am not. I can come clean and I know that anyone who chooses to see me knows what to expect. I do not have to justify myself or actions! It's great. Besides, the attention I get is TOTAL BLISS! Eros Zine: Do you dream of "making the big time" in LA? Terah: LA can wait for now! I am taking things slow and realize that I am still very young and need to learn more. I keep absorbing new things and hope that one day I will be in a position where financially I can be set and work with the big names once I am ready. I still want to take baby steps and be cautious. There are a lot of sharks out there! Patience is a virtue. Eros Zine: Back to your life as a person: Do you essentially live as a female these days? Terah: For the majority of my time, I live as a female. I don't know if I've molded my personality to ressemble that of a female. For me, it was a natural extension. I feel the more I shifted closer to being a female, the more my personality evolved into the female I've become.
A perfect example would be to move to another country and picking up the native language, accent and culture. Whether you want to or not, you will assimilate. I think I've unintentionally assimilated myself to the female gender. Eros Zine: There is debate among "biological women" as to whether a t-girl can be considered female, since she doesn't go through periods and pregnancy. Where do you stand in this debate? Terah: I'm aware of this debate, and I think there lies some misunderstanding on the behalf of genuine girls. It's a shame to see that biological women equate being female to pregnancies and periods. A small percentage of women never get pregnant and many others with the use of hormones seldom get periods until later in life. Elite female athletes do not get periods regularly and some don't until their competitive years come to an end. The spectrum is wide and there are gray areas. Sure, I do possess male sexual organs; however, I have more in common with a female that I do a male. Their argument for being a female is flawed. If I were a 65 year-old women who never had a child and was on the pill that prevented periods, does that mean I 'm not a female? Once again, in our society, we like to place things and people into categories. It seem everyone needs to have some type of "box" they must fall into. I'm not about boxes or categories. Wondering about these issues can really get a person ill. I can only say that I am a transsexual. When I think about it, people must realize that not all transsexuals wish to be 100% female. Many are content looking and acting like females; all while possessing a male sex organ. [There's] Absolutely nothing wrong with that. I believe I have the best of both worlds and sometimes ponder that many genuine females might be missing out! [smiles] Eros Zine: What do you enjoy most about being a t-girl ... and the least? Terah: Being a transsexual isn't as glamorous as the media might make it seem.
Safety is important, especially for a transsexual. As previously mentioned, trannies must become actors and know which roles to play at any given time. It has nothing to do with being two-faced, it's a question of survival. I enjoy watching those nature programs where animals blend into their surroundings by altering their skin tone to avoid predators. This is what I and several other shemales use to stay at the top of our game. I enjoy this very much as everyday presents new challenges and obstacles. The one thing I dislike about being a t-girl is the bickering within our own circle. There is a lot of back-stabbing and competitiveness among t-girls. This is shameful as it is difficult enough to live as a shemale. I find there is much more unity among lesbians and gay males. They have managed to pull their resources together and become and social and economic power house. You know your group has become a powerhouse once political candidates begin addressing your causes (she laughs). In time, t-girls will get there. Eros Zine: Where would you like to be, personally and career-wise, 10 years from now? And do you tour other cities, or are you strictly based in Montreal? Terah: Gosh, 10 years from now? Who knows? I hope to be the same down-to-earth person I am now, no matter what happens in the future. I hope to continue working in the adult entertainment industry and think that I have a great future in it. To answer your question, I do tour Canada and I am not strictly based in Montreal. Vancouver is a wonderful city that has a lot to offer and Toronto rocks. Montreal has a kick ass nightlife and the people are fantastic. I try to visit all major Canadian and American cities when I get the chance!
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